Goodbyes

Send in suggestions for a better "new life, new me." I am tired of all the haircuts that I regret and purchases that are never put to use; it's kinda boring now.

Bdw, my whole game of "proverbs come to life to teach me" is not going well. One can't control the waves, but one can adjust the sail. Ugh. I am tired now, and my hands are red. I want to let go of my sail but not die in the waves, especially when I can see the shore, or maybe that's an illusion.

The constant juggle between life's complexity and simplicity is frustrating. Committing sins with yolo or saving yourself for after marriage, what should be the way of life? How should I balance?

Where is that line between ungrateful and self-respect? How to strike a balance?

Well, they say survivors have scars, I have holes, bro. Can we stop already? Because honestly, I am at the victims have graves stage.

I get it, man, trust meeee I get it, can't control waves, adjust the sails, learn to dance in the rain, blah blah. It's like knocking on a deaf man’s door. But then that's the thing, when to stop being the bigger person, will your stop be a convenience or a give up?

I never wish to be easily defined, and diplomacy is the art of telling; it's about getting it right. 90% of the time, I do. The 10%. UGHHHHHHHH.

The culture of failure, that's how we were made. Every time it's used, it gets a little stronger. In life, people fail, situations fail, you fail, and sometimes life itself fails, but but but that's the best part, every end has a beginning. As you start to walk on the way, the way appears, it's the cycle, sorry circle of life.

Needing nothing attracts everything is one of the universal laws. Read somewhere, be grateful you slipped from the hands of the people who had no clue how to hold you. Is that true? Because I thought you learn how to hold better when you keep holding it? It's what I said above: when do you give up? I mean, one can't always blame the wind when they open the window. Kabhi kabhi Khudko bura banakar kahani se nikal jao, because you don't need the light to last forever, you just need to remember it returns.

Also, read this somewhere again, that one day you will realize that the people who left did not take anything with them, the love was yours, the kindness was yours, and it's still yours!

And darling, being hated on is actually cute, I mean, you can change somebody's chemical balance. Amazing.

So, since we can't control what happens and we can control how we respond, let the sail take its course, let us try to catch it only when we want to? Because worst-case scenario, you'll fall into the sea? Meh, what if you learn swimming.......

until next time,

xoxo,

aarya,